thats life?

I have been so nagative these days. I have tired of being myself. I realized now I dont have anyone to talk to. Of course i have my friends aroud me all the time but i cant really open up myself and really talk. I have never felt so lonely. I am alone. alone. I want to be loved. but i cant even love myself. I want to change. these days ive noticed myself so lost. I lost confidence.
i am just tired. I really wanna rest. when and where can i acutally feel happy, and secure?